So today in my boredom I managed to come up with a plan to gain credit to get into uni without having to waste time at tafe on a pointless degree..now all i need is a job to fund said plan
I fear that one day im going to let everything build up so much that im just going to snap! & absolutely loose it. I fear that day is soon
Ive noticed that since not having a car i dont get invited out as often. Even by my housemate & so called “good” friend. & when I do Get invited its so I can drive his car so he can drink.
Things I miss
Contrary to popular belief I do not enjoy being “on the dole” it is not all free money, rainbows & lollipops. I do not sit around all day watching tv & living off tax payers money. I spend most of my day job hunting, applying for jobs, emailing businesses & calling them. So the first thing i miss is…
1. HAVING A JOB
Closely followed by…
2. MONEY
Because I actually enjoy being independent & paying my own bills.
3. FRIENDS
Having no money has taught me that even friends judge you & dont seem to want to hang out like I have some sort of diseases (not sure you can catch unemployment)
4. FOOD
Im so over eating pasta & rice based dishes. I would kill for some fresh fruit & veg.
5. MY SANITY
I am slowly bit by bit going insane with boredom, frustration, wondering what people are thinking of me..ect
6. CONVERSATION
I miss having something to talk about when I run into people I know. Sadly the first thing ask about is work.
I Miss so many other things, but all I want is some sort of normal back to my life & to feel like an active member of society rather than feel like an outcast.
The last month or so has made me reevaluate some thing and people in my life. Mainly people and how much of a bad friend some people are. Friendship is a two way street and currently im in a one way friendship making all the effort and getting nothing in return. So from now on I am no longer making the effort. This person is adding nothing of value to my life .. so its no great loss to lose them as a friend.
